Time

Lately time seems to be at high speed. There is never enough time for this or that and it seems like since the birth of my daughter that we've been on this fast forward motion for months. Not sure if its because there is an activity just about every weekend or just the juggle of two kids, work, home and couple life or what. It has been insane!

I love being a Mom of two kids. I can handle the work load fine enough. My house is never spotless, but thats how the world is with small kids. I'd rather spend the time with them then sweeping up every little crumb. I've made a lot of time with both of them and found that its important to take time with each of them separately. My son really transitioned well into having another person take over part of his parents attention. Knock on wood, but I haven't seen any jealousy from him since his sister has entered our world. We also make a point on taking him out with us and making little dates rather it be something small like going to a grocery store or hitting up a theme park or visiting a farm with just him. My daughter is young but we do things just with her as well, especially if the other parent has the other kid. We may also go to the store or just hang out one on one on the floor playing with her. I think this is important to do with the kids. It gives them that family time but also build relationships individually without the entire family around. These trips are great and I love them, but they go so fast!

I also have put a lot more emphasis on my marriage. I love my husband. He means the world to me and I don't know any man that does the things he does in terms of housing projects, cleaning, cooking, kid stuff, etc., He just is amazing. I had to learn to be okay with leaving my baby other than just going to work though. It was tough, but I did it. I did tear up and call a million times to her Grandparents, but I survived. I find the importance of having alone time even with the Mom guilt is well worth it. I know one of these days my kids will grow up and move on to their own thing and I want to still know and have a great relationship with my husband as a couple. I don't want to know him just as my team mate in concurring day to day parent activities. We're both more than that even if its the most important job we will both ever have.

Work is work. The job I have now is actually one of the best jobs I have ever had. I work a lot though. Yes I may be late...a lot, but it doesn't stop me from working evenings and even weekends on different tasks or catching up on email. I need to stop being a bit late and stop working after my kids are in bed. I should have my own "me time". I recently read an article saying that working Mothers will have less Mom guilt and have more appreciation of down time if they put the damn blackberry away. I don't have the blackberry but I completely understand what they're saying. I like my job a lot. I just don't live to work. I work in order to live.

Time is just speeding so quickly with all of the activities we're into. I just wish it would slow down. I just wish there was a way to speed up the work days and slow down the family/kid/couple time. I am so thankful and so blessed to have my family. I want to soak up all the time that I have with them. Love you G family!